on the watch.

原本有另一件事要發泄, 但說出來也不會令其改變行為, 只怪我倒霉

picking up my blog again, because there are things worth raging about in a city i call home, where i live with my parents, who "control" my life; a place where the culture and values are the way they are (I believe) due to the high density population.  welcome to my life in 2013. 

Here are my crazy fantasies for the blank (short) future to come, I really wish I knew what I am about to do with my life...

I want to be packing a suitcase for a trip somewhere
or a short exchange to Korea

I want to be at an office desk, knowing I'm somewhat productive in earning something at least
or even if I'm bored out of my guts, and having to count the hours away, I wouldn't mind
as long as I'm "doing" something

I want to have something to look forward to, but I have none, for my future is my own canvas. 

I can't go to dance because I don't want my parents to pay for my classes and I don't have the money
(since I will  drain my bank account savings if I dance regularly which means I need consistent income to sustain such a hobby)

SO, all I can do is to wait for job replies
even though truthfully I'm not excited about starting my potentially life-long career of working...

I miss dancing, I miss my heels, I miss last minute decisions to go out whenever I want,
I miss the life in Sydney, I miss the "freedom" I had (with the exception that I have to skype home every SINGLE day at a particular time and insanely still, ask for permission if I stay out later than 'normal')

BUT, I can't live a life that doesn't move forward...
and right now, moving forward means starting a NEW life in HK...