2016

The worst fairy tale of attempts in rekindling a dying flame that has no future

Or simply the thought of rekindling...

Knowing the consequence of taking risks in coming out all shattered, broken and hurt, we still walk into it. 

Human nature hey?
That explains the unpredictable waves of shock and emotion that followed

You're not the same person anymore

You used to be such a tease, a fun sport and goofed around in the most light hearted care-free way

But I guess this is what distance does to you

This is how I've made you become someone burdened by worries of my overthinking; fear of failing expectations, being hurt from disappointment

And this you is someone who you are not

Being with me isn't bringing out the best of you

When you are supposed to be with someone who makes you a better person

This is how distance makes us unable to go back

Unable to undo the regrets and disappointment

And for that, I feel sorry 

I wanted to let you see the best of me

I wanted to see the better side of you

To fight for it, to defend for ourselves

But it doesn't always work that way

We come to learn that pursuing a long term relationship just isn't about attraction

It isn't about the fighting to be with the person you have that lightning connection with

It isn't about being yourself, letting loose and being immature and having the most fun you can ever experience 

But it is somehow about accommodating differences to reach sustainability without killing each other with too much or too little passion

One is meant to believe that all should just naturally fall into place, right?